Thursday, July 8, 2010
something.
no matter how much i'm convinced that i love my life, that my friends are the greatest, my family is irreplacable...
something is always wrong, always. and i never want to even admit it cause then it just plain out seems like im complaining. everyone has their problems and this is mine. and the reason why something is always wrong is because of me. i always want things to perfect, happy, but hallelujah- nothing will ever be perfect and why, why do i keep thinking that one day things will be?
maybe, jean was right. maybe i do need to stop worrying about how others will take it, what others will say. maybe i just need to start considering myself before others for a change.
because i do care what people say, what people think, what people assume.
well, fuck that.
soon, i will do something that will hurt someone, surprise a lot of people, and will bring me to tears, maybe. I will do what I need to do, and what is right for me. So, for now, I will say sorry for my future actions. It might be something I regret, but I feel this is right.
I need to talk to someone that will listen.
Where's my bestfriends :(
something is always wrong, always. and i never want to even admit it cause then it just plain out seems like im complaining. everyone has their problems and this is mine. and the reason why something is always wrong is because of me. i always want things to perfect, happy, but hallelujah- nothing will ever be perfect and why, why do i keep thinking that one day things will be?
maybe, jean was right. maybe i do need to stop worrying about how others will take it, what others will say. maybe i just need to start considering myself before others for a change.
because i do care what people say, what people think, what people assume.
well, fuck that.
soon, i will do something that will hurt someone, surprise a lot of people, and will bring me to tears, maybe. I will do what I need to do, and what is right for me. So, for now, I will say sorry for my future actions. It might be something I regret, but I feel this is right.
I need to talk to someone that will listen.
Where's my bestfriends :(
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