Pause: 12/30/10

Yesterday

Yesterday was actually a nice day. A nice cold day. Freezing as a matter of fact. But it was nice. JennyLu and I met up at Chinatown and took the bus up to Montclair to finish up our project. After we got that over with, we let the day really just go with the flow. We stopped at Out of the Closet and everything was amazingly CHEAP, haha - cheaper than the flea market and that's crazy. I got a really nice simple tee for $1 & it was from Express. Then we bussed to back to chinatown to fulfill Jenny's craving for Froyo even though it was windy as fcuk. & headed to eat. We were crazing some GOURMET burgers so we bussed to Barney's at Piedmont - oh so yummmmmy!!!! It was around 8pm when we finished so we just headed to Wesley's since he was so desperate to do something. It was really late and hella cold so we already knew not many people would come and the girls were basically at dance practice but she texted some people to tell some people and whatever - minor complications and miscommunications. Met up with Thomas and Geoffrey at Lucky's - got RedBox and met up with Jason and Wesley at Wesley's. So it was the 6 of us - it was nice. It was SO fun and crazy playing Wii Tennis - my arm is still hella sore! I definitely look forward to playing that again - what a work out. Then we watched Resident Evil 4 & the moment we were watching was so perfect. Just laughing and yelling at zombies. We parted ways at a quarter past midnight and I went over to Thomas' - we ate the food I brought to his house with his siblings & went back downstairs to watch Shrek 4 <3 I knocked out at his house and in the morning went to our officer meeting (today). Well I haven't blogged about my day in a while and here it is. Haha, g'nights. Sleeping early tonight I think.

lately

senior year has definitely changed us for better or for worse - but i can see it in a lot of my friends, too. i've been wanting to be alone more lately, or maybe I just find it not much of a difference to hangout . and there's not much excited in just hanging out anymore. maybe we're all growing up and most definitely, growing apart. it's something unspoken that I know we all realize. is that why i'm not so excited for tomorrow? the only reason why I wanted to make the party was to bring all my friends together for 2011 - I wanted to be a huge group again & bring all familiar friendly faces together & just have fun. but this is just like planning fundraisers but with taking money out of my parent's pockets. I need about 100 people to go to break even with all the costs because I don't want my parents to pay for yet another thing. I don't think I have time to be excited for it - I'll probably be excited when the doors open but I don't even know what to wear or what to expect. things have been pretty glum. I finished all my homework except math & I should be happy about that but it's also the thought of applying to privates and scholarships that still lingers.. eh - maybe i'm just being miserable right now. but actually - it's true. It's true that I have lost the want to hang out, the want to see my friends, the want to plan things. I find myself enjoying just getting dressed up and taking off somewhere, barting to wherever & taking things slow. There's no need to stand there for hours to deliberate on what to do next. And since nobody but like Wesley makes it clear that they want to hang out then I take it that everyone feels the same about just not caring or taking initiative anymore because we all have our own things to do. Thomas asked Why do so many people think I'm nice. & I think it's because he knows that I'm actually a mean person? But tell you what - I really am at times but I keep quiet when I'm mad - I just hate myself when I let the wrong things slip out of my mouth. I don't know. I just really hate that break is coming to an end but at the same time, I'm glad. I need to keep my life going and occupied with anything - even school. I guess, I am looking forward to tomorrow night - I'm hoping it's more than expected and it'll be a great night to end 2010 and begin 2011.