i just want to not care & let time do the work.

i just don't know.

Yea, well. I just really don't know anymore.
I don't know what to say. for once. I'm just too caught up with myself, I can't handle a relationship. I'm too busy. Under the pressure of my mom asking me everyday have I done any scholarships. & to have a relationship distracting me from the perfection my family wants.
That, & well, I'm just losing patience. Truthfully, I think the hatred that I have held in from my past has just start begun to leak out. & on the wrong person. I'm not a bad person, I just need time to love myself first again.
But I know you're trying.
so i will try too, again.
maybe.
idk.

quicky

webcamming with thomas, lol. feel shy again.
i can't stand the fact that i have work like 4 days a week, because i'm so busay.
hm, need to do stupid ass stupud stupid summer calculus hwrk.
class officer mtg soon too. can't wait (:
uhhhhh, what else.
went to eat noodles with daddy today <3
almost august, damn.
i'm getting a new dog soon in like 2 wks.
i know my grandpa misses snowball. my grandma told me that since snowball passed away, my grandpa hasn't been the same well, i hope i can love this new dog just the same, it's a SHE. & she looks exactly like snowball, for now. since she's only like 2 weeks old. but my grandparents are excited to bring her home, my grandpa alreayd wants to go shopping to buy her a bed. LOL.
well gotta go back to webcamming because thomas is getting frustrated lolololol.