although i have decided to not do a big celebration this year, i know that it's perfectly fine with me ... that's why i decided not to do it. i am enjoying everything i have, my parents, & my two lifelines, thomas & joanna. i don't want anymore money spending that my parents have to "worry" about. lol, worry is in quotes because earlier my parents were surprised i wasn't doing anything and they were actually trying to convince me to actually throw something. thomas and joanna tell me way too many times that i am spoiled, and i don't want to be. i want to find another job along with aypal, of course. but i want to get paychecks consistently and be able to afford things. <3 i'm turning 18, and i know that i personally want to become a better person. today, i "lost" my phone ... more like being stupidly careless, but truthfully, the only reason i was upset was at myself. i went ahead and called to deactivate it and asked when my contract was over along with what options i had available now. that's another thing that i am always bugged about ... i need to stop being to careless and take more responsibility ... shit. haha.
love life is perfectly great, too <3 been out with that boy for so long, and the days just keep passing us by but it only seems like time is too short. it feels like we're at our honeymoon stage ( around two months ) & i hate how i keep missing him. weird >.<